I'm a worrier...

So after having my first child... I started getting headaches. Not being a person who normally gets headaches I started wondering what was wrong, did I have a tumor... a blood clot... some weird freaky infection from the hospital? No, I just needed glasses. Apparently hormones can affect your vision, so as you can imagine... after four pregnancies I pretty much couldn't pass the vision test at the DMV anymore... I'm totally near-sighted. But after my first kid when I discovered it I got glasses, clear and sun... I hardly ever go outside without sunglasses on... I'm really sensitive to light and ever since I started driving at 16, I have ALWAYS worn sunglasses. One benefit I'm noticing to doing that is the lack of fine lines around my eyes... I swear all these gals I see with fine lines, it's not from smiling, cause I do that a lot... it's from squinting. I'm not a squinter, because I won't be caught dead without my sunglasses ;) (Oh but still don't look too closely around my eyes, cause I'm definitely not 20 anymore.)



So anyhow, I don't really wear my clear glasses. My sunglasses are actually too big, they will fall off if I look down, so I hardly ever notice I'm wearing them... but I've tried several different styles of frame for my clear (it's too bad I didn't get the same frame I use for the sun in clear years ago when I found that one) and each one starts to bug the bridge of my nose, or squeeze my head by my ears... so I only wear them if I have to... driving or watching TV or a movie. So basically I walk around all day in my house or in a store with everything being slightly fuzzy. It honestly has never bothered me that much, my vision isn't actually considered bad, I have a fairly mild Rx and I don't get a headache from that part... it was the driving thing that strained my eyes and caused the headaches. Still I wouldn't mind having lasik someday and never having to wear glasses... but in the mean time I went and got contacts a few weeks ago.

So here's my worry problem... so I got the contacts, and you have to ease your eyes into them... and no that's totally not just a "suggestion" I really did have to only wear them a few hours at first. In fact one day I wore them too long on accident because I got tied up at my haircut appointment and the next day my eyes felt like they had sand in them... I had to give my eyes and entire day off, and then I was fine. So I've adjusted and now I can wear them from the time I wake up until the time I go to bed... I could probably sleep in them, my Dr. said these are really good at getting oxygen to your cornea and I could go a week or two if I really wanted to, but that grosses me out... I'm sort of a clean freak, plus I'm a worrier... were you wondering if I would ever get to that part? You should sympathize with my poor husband, you should hear the back stories he has to endure before I actually get to my point... which honestly doesn't always happen because I get lost in my sidetracked mind... that would be a good name for my blog ;) My sidetracked mind... cause it totally is... oh wait, where was I?! Ha ha... I crack myself up. That's another thing hubs has to endure... I think I'm hilarious and will always laugh at myself... I swear he just rolls his eyes most of the time.

Okay, now seriously, back to the worrier thing. So I'm just convinced that my eyes aren't getting enough oxygen, even though he said they were... so I'm just sure that I'm going to go blind from this and then I'm going to wonder why I even bothered with contacts. Not that I could go back now even if I wanted to... I can totally see everything, the clock on the microwave, all the details everywhere, stuff in the store that isn't just 5 feet in front of my face... I keep wondering when it's going to get old to hear me say, I can totally see everything. And after I take them out at night I really notice the fuzzy clock on the fuzzy nightstand next to the fuzzy cat... see what I did there? Ha ha... so funny I tell you ;) So yeah, I worry about oxygen... I worry about properly cleaning and moisturizing them... are my hands clean enough? Am I going to get an eye infection? Seriously, I'm just annoying... who made me like this... if I'm going to blame someone for this ailment, it's totally going to be my dad. Mostly because my mom often doesn't seem to have a clue what's going on... and I mean that in the best possible way, she's just blissfully unaware of life around her... but she's happy, so who can complain. And my dad? Well, he was a lot like me... maybe not a hypochondriac, or a germ-a-phobe... but super intense, very detailed (maybe a tiny bit OCD?)... so I'm going to blame this one on genetics... wanna know the worst part? I'm pretty sure I've passed this gene on to every single one of my kids... well, there's hope for the four year old... oh wait, nope, he's shown signs already too. Darn! Oh well, not much you can do... at least they are clean and organized.

Oh and just so you know how OCD I TRULY am... this is a picture I found online of my actual glasses... when I searched and couldn't come up with something that looked quite right, I went and got my frames and googled the actual style number... yeah, really. Thanks Dad. =D