It's amazing...

I have made dinner FIVE times this week... that's so NORMAL for me!!! Plus I have been cleaning, reading, having fun and generally back to my happy, bubbly self. Spending time with my kids, feeling happy, and it's GREAT. Seriously I'm sad it took me so long to figure out what was bugging me... but I'm glad I did, I dealt with my feelings about it, and then moved on. It was ESPECIALLY good for me to deal with this, and get over it, because I just found out that two more friends are getting divorces. I can't change it, it's sad that it happens, it's sad that I go back to those feelings and experiences from my childhood... but it's okay, I'm okay... I felt a little vulnerable, like what if this happened to me, but I can't live my life worrying about all the what-ifs (one of my fav Shel Silverstein poems by the way.) So it really is amazing, to feel normal again, not be overwhelmed by my fears or my feelings or my grief, and just live my life the best that I can. So yeah... May is going to be a good month, I can feel it =)